A special friend

Throughout these years,I always have a certain very special friend who can easily affects my mood and my special friend will be some sort of like my 'personal mood controller'.

A special friend for me is a friend that I wish to share all of me to.I wish when I'm sad and led out my hand,you will be the one that will pull me through things.When I'm happy,you will be the one I wanna first share with.It's always this particular someone.It's not him and it's not her that I will first think of.I want you to know me the most.I don't wanna show you the me who's wearing a mask.I want you to be the one I expose my true me to.

When you're chosen for particular reason(s),no one could replace you in a short time.Maybe for you it's just me sharing my feelings but seriously,how many of my friends really know bout me?It's like so dull when you're absent,so lonely when you're not here.

I can put on my dark face for whole day if you just ignore me.Or I can put on a smile for whole day when you're good to me.

I tried to share my things with you.You seemed to handle it quite well at first but as time flies,your attitude towards me changes.Why do people change?

I don't know.

I wish that I know but I don't.

You never tell me bout you.

I never know you well.Are you happy or sad?Are you smiling or crying?Are you in joy or in tears?

I.still.never.know.

Is it because I'm not hardworking enough to earn your trust?Or is it because to you I'm just n.o.r.m.a.l?Just like any other friends you have in your big circle of friends?

Can you tell me what to do?

I don't think the person I mentioned would even visit my blog.And even if the person might be reading now,he/she won't even realised I'm talking bout him/her.

Dear Santa,
I would trade everything of anything for a special friend...