Min Lit Camp

I just came back from a youth camp this afternoon.Yes,YOUTH CAMP.A chinese one.=)

Venue:Mount Singai
Date:14-15 November 2008

It has been one year plus since I last hiked Mount Singai.This time is much tougher cause I had to carry a backpack and Jordy's guitar.(=.=)

I doubted quite a while before agree on joining the camp and actually rejected someone's 'invitation' for several times.What actually made me change my mind to go?Maybe I was finding a way to let myself trust God.(am a free thinker)

The camp ajks were from Green Road ISCF and youth members from Cherry's youth group.The participants are mainly students from Min Lit school and Green Road and an odd one from Sunway College.

The moment we arrived the bottom of the mountain,everyone were very energetic but by the time reached the middle of the mountain,everyone were saying 'I'm so tired!'.I din't actually know how long it took us to reach our rooms but it's roughly less than 1 hour.*claps*

Divided members into rooms,put our backpack and gathered in the hall.Ying Nuo and Keh Yue were my roommates.In the hall there were praising session where we sang a few songs.I just followed and since the songs are in chinese so you can actually hear me singing the wrong words very often.After that was ice breaking and opening ceremony.

We were given a talk on the topic 'The special love for the special you'.And yea it's in chinese.He told us bout five different types of LOVE.
- things
- family
- friends
- lover
- God

See,I was paying attention!Love for things are divided into two.One,you love when you need it and another one is admiring type of love.Family's love is the type of love that you can't choose and you love them because you're born to be so.Friends' love is you love a person who has common interests like you and you people do things you're interested together.Lover's love is the love between two person only and they usually talk bout each other.Unlike friend's love where they talk bout things they're interested in.And normally lover's love is the love that lasts for the shortest period.God's love is where we have all our have all love for things,family,friends,and lover.

We were given free time to shower,have some high tea and do our own things.I followed Ying Nuo to the canteen to have high tea with the elders and listened to what they said while waiting for our chance to shower.They explained to a few participants who were also non-Christians.They explained why we have hard times and how God created us.

After dinner was night games.Hehehe I was very sleepy that time and I yawned a lot during the game.The instruction for the game is,someone named Ho Big Big was murdered and we have to find out who's the murderer.The other characters included Ho Big,Ho Er Nai,Ho Small Small,Ho Ah Ma,driver,2 maids,Ho Big Big's girlfriends,Catherine and Jolin,Ho Big Big's physiologist and Ho Big's nurse.The different characters were placed at different places from the hall to canteen's compound.We had to ask them or what we call witnesses for infomations to find out who's the murderer.

p/s:Most of the area are very dark as light supply there is really limited.And we're only allowed to bring ONE torchlight per group.

The process and storyline of this 'act' is nice and fun but someone is making me feel annoyed with the hailer.LOL.Plus that time I was very sleepy.Below is the whole process of the 'act'.

Ho Big Big (Kelvin) was shopping with his girlfriend Cat (Catherine) one day and they met Jolin (Xing Yin) which is Kelvin's another girlfriend.They ran away and Ho Big brought Cat back to his house to see his family members.Ho Big (a guy from Cherry's youth named Po Ai) is very satisfied wit Cat while Ho Er Nai (a girl from Cherry's youth named Jia Feng) hates the girl and Ho Big Big because Ho Big Big is not his own kid.Ho Ah Ma (Cherry) is Ho Big Big's grandma who has short term memory lost.Two maids named Mei Mei (Yik Tze) and Li Li (Yik Chee) were serving the family with tea.This time,Ho Small Small (Jordy) was home.And he went out shooping with his mother,Ho Er Nai.Ho Big Big sent Cat home and everyone was sleeping.At this time,Ho Small Small was back and Ho Big Big's physiologisy (Guan Hui) paid a visit.Ho Big Big wasn't at home so Ho Small Small was chatting with her.She told Ho Small Small that Ho Big Big has double personallities where he loves Jolin when he's evil and loves Catherine when he's normal.When the physiologist left,Ho Big Big came home and Ho Small Small was threatening him by saying how could he have the will if he has double personalities.Ho Big Big tried to fight back but was stabbed with a knife at the chest by Ho Small Small.(So,Ho Small Small is the murderer)

But,the story ain't finished yet.After Ho Small Small have his will,he sent his dad who had stroke after Ho Big Big's sudden death and his grandma who has short term memory lost to old folks home.His mom never liked him after he murdered Ho Big Big so his mom left him too.He was feeling very miserable and thinked a lot.And he finally surrended himself to the police.The end.

After night games we went back to our rooms.But I couln't sleep.I was the only one who can't sleep in the room where the other 3 was sleeping and Keh Yue were talking in next door's room.I waited for her to come back and sleep.Went to talk with when I frist can't sleep.It was raining and we're talking in the balcony.I was covering myself with the blanket like a mummy.

I wasn't that happy when I couldn't sleep.I felt very lonely and helpless and keep wondering why Keh Yue isn't back yet when she told me she will be going out for just a while but din't came back after an hour plus.And I keep hearing she talking and I wanna know what was she talking bout but I din't wanna go over next door.And I asked myself how come she never tell me anything bout her.Now I felt I really don't know much bout her in the inside.

Then Jordy was very tired and wanted to rest but I din't wanna go back room so he finally went to find Keh Yue and ask her take care of me.LOL.He was chased away and closed curtain during his first attempt earlier.Quite pity him...he was very tired I still make him accompany me.Me being selfish again.Sorry Jordy!You're the most handsome guy in the camp!LOL.And felt so selfish to make Keh Yue came back to accompany me too.She was sharing stories with other people and to satisfy my own need I made her come back.Sorry Keh Yue!!!I should be the one who felt sorry...not you.

Hehe we were texting each other although we were only about 50cm apart.And it was fun laughing at people's snore.LOL.I won't forget that night/morning lol.Both of us slept around 3am.

From sitation above,logically we were the last to wake up.Lying on the bed lyk two dead bodies.And I knocked my head on the floor early in the morning!Thanks God the floor was made of wood.If it were made of concrete I would be dead by now because even people outside our room could here the knock.

Brushed teeth,gathered and did some morning excercise lead by Elaine.Ate breakfast in the canteen.Saw Samantha Si and her family.Then sang some songs and was given a talk on 'family love'.She asked us to list down things bout our parents and I swear I was really scratching my head when I wanna write those answers.Cherry saw some of my answers and laughed at me.xD

After the talk was debate!'Should couple being too open minded be captured'?The girl captured is a 17 year old and a half student who were making out with her boyfriend in The Spring(LOL) and when she was captured,her boyfriend ran away.My group joined with another 2 groups to form the cons.And we won.xD

*I'm feeling a bit too tired to type more now*

After lunch,I took a bath since there were a lot of free time and after everything was settled,we start going down the mountain.The few greenians at the back were damn insane that time.Those people are Jordy,Keh Yue,Elaine,Yik Tze,YikChee,Joshua,Kelvin and of course the one and only ME.We were the last one to arrive the bus because we were the last to depart.LOL.

I don't have any pictures with me so I'll try to upload them if I have some of them.

Sometimes when certain feeling is lost,it's hard to gain it back...

and I think it's the best for you and me.

=)

You never needed me anyways.(I'm not blaming,I'm just glad,that nothing is hanging between)

An explanation

Things changed since the day you decided to dump me like a mother aborting her baby...
People migth think that I changed since I became a prefect or whatsoever.That's not the truth.

Try to put yourself in someone's shoes.Someone who only being remembered when needed.Someone who is known as a emo kid and nothing else.Someone who's always upset and nothing could be done to save.When you only gave a few tries and gave me up after failing the few 'herotic' attempts you tried.

I din't know it was obvious to outsiders that people are treating me like a slave,where you call me when you need me and don't give a damn when you're doing something else.Excuses for being too busy or have other things to take care of is extremely sucky.This made everything thing else more important than a 'friend'.

Yea anyone everyone can say I forget bout old friends when I have new friends.But ever wonder why I acted so?Didn't I used to be a loyal slave?People get tired from always getting hurt in the past.People want a better life when they are better people outside waiting for you.And to think of it,slave would get tired for keep on giving out and not receiving even a 'thanks'.

No one have to deny anything or giving 'sympathy' because who knows you might the one in a million.It doesn't have to be you treating me this way,it could be you treating your friends the same way.Just that you never realised.Some people are too self-centered and ego that they never know what they are doing.

I have a friend,who used to be like me in her time.But now she's living a much more better life.I'm taking the path she used to take and the price I have to pay is a lot much more.For certain people,that way of living isn't a good way,but as long as I think it suits me,it will be fine.And yea whatever,I don't care if you're saying I'm living someone else's life cause I'm.

It's not wrong to be selfish sometimes.

Even if you see me waiting alone in school or dutying alone during recess time,I still feel happy around people who looked more like me.If we're hated by students,we're hated together.=) Yes I found my happiness in the prefectorial board.I was very paranoid to be or not to be a prefect at first,but now,I would hate myself to death if I din't went to the prefect interview back then.At least I was never backstabbed by anyone in there and everyone treats me nicely.

I admit I became less emo after I joined the prefectorial board because I have friends to talk to when I'm bored,I have duties to keep me away from doing nothing and think bout unhappy stuff.And regardless,people I have met in the prefectorial board are awesome.They keep the smile on my face.=)

p/s:If you hate me,just tell me you hate me.Don't fake.Because I don't treat someone I hate nicely too.

Muahahaha.

Now I'm FINALLY free from you.

Knowing I have been replaced makes me confirm my decision was right.=)

Let's go party and bang our heads into the wall!

\m/

The rocker is coming back.

\m/

I'm a sucker.

Why do I have to do all these to protect myself and hurt you at the same time.

Argh.

=)

I'm too hopeless now.

Because I need you in order to sleep every night.

I feel like a kid wanting hugs from a big sister now.

Haha.

=D

Wee~

Save Me

Currently craving for:Halloween Costume Party!!!

Why is 1 + 1 = 2?

A friend of mine,used to be quite close but hasn't really talked for 1 month plus,talked to me today.Indirectly by the way.We were just 'talking' to each other on MSN's personal message.None said it was for each other but in our hearts,we knew it.

'I'll love you ALWAYS.'

Sounds very impossible for me.Even 'best friend forever' is the phrase I hate the most.

How long can forever lasts?

How long will ALWAYS lasts?

A day?A week?A month?A year?A decade?A century?

Weeks ago,I missed all these sweet talks you used to shared.

Today,I was answering all these very cold-ly.

You said 'I love you' for more than once tonight,
might be wanting me to say the same,
but I returned your hopeful hope a zero.

I was,I am and I will be a bad friend.
Not that I don't have faith in me,
it's just I can't be committed for a long period of time.
I'm sorry,although sorry doesn't change a thing.
I'm selfish,resulted for being hurt too much in the past,
and wanting to protect my soul so much.

No one understands me.
I hate to eat alone.
I hate to be alone.
I don't cut for pleading sympathy.
For every dismiss with friends,
I tried to hold my tears.
Because all I have back home,
is all to my own.

This is the vary reason I tried to stay away from home,
this is why I keep bugging my friends,
this is what makes me so cunning.

p/s:I'm sorry Julie,I guess I'm still not ready for 'emo-no-more'.

Damn attractive

I guess the mosquitoes are huge fan of mine.

I'm just too...irresistable.(note:I made up that word)

Happy Birthday Yew Keh Yue