I'm just a little left behind

I'll be flying in like 2 and a half day time,but I'm not very excited now.Every time before I fly I was very excited.Okay,these few days sucks.I have been thinking a lot.

I'm a broken strings of a kite and I'm also a friend that tries to pay back the unhappiness I used to brought to by brighten up their life.But,no one appreciates and needed freebies I'm giving.

I'm just a normal person.

I might be just a little lack of fun.

I might be just a little lack of attitude.

I might be just a little lack of knowledge.

I might be just a little lack of appearance.

I might be just a little lack of intelligence.

I might be just a little lack of everything everyone has or needed.

But it doesn't mean that I don't feel anything or need anything or desire anything.