Yeah.yeah,yeah x 4

You got me begging you for mercy
why won't you release me
you got me begging you for mercy
why won't you release me
I said release me

Just a random photo I took during public duty last two days at Batu Lintang Auditorium for inter-school dancing competition.Not emo,not making the person in the picture famous either.

A letter to my dear friend,flu

Dear Flu,

Hi there,it has been a long time since you last visited me.I'm not really capable to have you to stay with me tomorrow so I hope you can bring along your suitcase and leave by tomorrow morning.I would appreciate that a lot.Thank you for your cooperation.

Yours sincerely,
PAN.


p/s:I'm so excited now!Saw Kak Raihan this afternoon.And I'm so looking forward to tomorrow.See ya people!=)

RCYU6 committee 08/09 line up,ER08

Yesterday was Saturday.Yesterday was a fun Saturday.=)

Finally can get rid of sickening class replacements and had the 4th RC general meeting.I was told about what was gonna happen the day before by one of the committee but I can't tell who.But the details weren't told until yesterday morning.

Had marching,I never know it's actually more fun to teach than to do it.*hiaks,I think normal people who have the same thoughts*After that was all sort of distribution which made the whole class looks like 'pasar malam'.I had nothing to distribute so just went around to help out and keep thinking about the committee meeting later.

Finally it's time for the climax of the day.Few organizers including I actually thought they would wanna comment about the activities we organized.But out of everyone's surprises,they were gonna tell us about committee line up.I mean I actually know it before committee meeting cause Eileen was tempting me with the list of posts with name covered with paper slip but there was once the paper slip flew up and I saw the name and she couldn't anything.Haha!*oops,drive too far apart from actual subject*But I was surprised they actually din't say anything about the telematch and flag day.It was like,suddenly nothing happened within this 2 months or was it a month?o_O?If someone is interested to know bout the committee line up,call me up,date me,buy me a candle light dinner,and finally,wait till the day AGM comes.=) So,I advise you to go ask someone else except me.Hmm,but I'm too softhearted so I would probably tell you if you just 'sa jiao'.LOLS.(this paragraph is so full of crap)

To Kay and Eileen,
Thanks for trusting me so much and not look down on me.I've nothing much to say but I really actually thought I would get the [insert post I told you both] post.*Hmph*

To Joce. T,
Yea,let's work harder.Cos we're the ah piaos.Means we have no legs so we should fly faster than people who walks.*piao~*(I hope you're reading this when it's at night time so that you would freak out and ring my phone and scold me for scaring you,LOL)

To Julie,
Hey,wanna know what I was dilemma-ing yesterday?Just,I was afraid all these might change things.Things about you and I as friends.I was afraid you would be mad at me for getting what you wanted.That's why I don't dare to voice anything for the whole day.I'm sorry for don't know what and I'm listening to the song 'sorry'.So,promise things won't change?I'll try my very best.

To Nathalie,
I just hang up the phone bout 45 minutes with you and I can still imagine how shock or unbelievable you sounds when I told you bout all these line up things.=) And people,be in mind that I wasn't busybodyly go inform people around me okay,I was calling up Nat to ask her bout public duties and congratulating her at the same time.=P

To HH and HC,
Like what Jocelynn said,it's just a minor problem compared to what you're going to face in the future.You just have to work harder,you just have to voice out sometimes,but not too much,you just have to obey what people said,you just have to do whatever to get what you want.Except for crying and sitting down doing nothing.Like what Johan Bey said:"I think.Therefore,I am."Though it's just five words but it motivates me a lot.Ever each of us that the previous committee selected is proven with hardwork.Not getting something without effort.

To Jordy,
Well,I think you deserves a post but nevermind.Just be more patient and wait for another year ok?=)

To committee board 08/09,
Let's R.O.C.K committee board 0809 and congratulations people!

ER08 Stage

Ok,I know Kay said it's just a probationary board but I guess things won't change much.So,Julie and Nathalie(both lieS),please make AGM earlier.LOL.I sounds so desperate by the way.

ER08 ticket,Christian Fish mark on my hands and something in the circle...

So,decided to go to ER concert last minute.The theme for this year is L.O.V.E-Live.Obedience.Victory.Empowered.So duh-ly,I bought the ticket when I reached there.Went with Julie and Evelyn.Saw much more people then I expected.Saw Shanice,Li Fern(dancing),Nathalia(dancing),Pam,Linda,Jacky,Jocelynn Chai,Vanessa,Amelia,Grace,Laura Yap(YES...),Leon,and Jordy.(Oh well,not really many people after I have listed them)Saw Jordy was walking alone,seems like finding people in the crowd so I went to him and hit him on the shoulder to ask him join us.He's tall and big sized enough to let support me when I tip toe to look in front.I can say that our spot is quite a nice one.

I wasn't high enough to jump and scream though.Too shy I guess?Remember what did Kay said?I'm a quiet person okay?I like the songs.Especially those by Mark David.And one of the dance where the switched off the lights and can see hands.

Mark David singing.His voice is stunning.Cool guitar he has too.

The performance I was talking about.

There were candles given out to us.Every each of us.And the scene is just so romantik and clam,and I don't know how to describe.It made me feel like holding a person's hand or just hugging them.There were also a very touching video played.

Like a sea full of candle lights.

Overall-ly,din't regret going to the concert.An amazing night instead.=)

Got tagged!*bang*

step- by- step

instructions: Remove ONE question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

1. Do you believe in love at first sight?

Yes.Haha.That's what happened by the way.

2. Do you eat without brushing your teeth?

I can't survive that I would be very sorry to dear food.

3. Where is the place that you want to go the most?

Somewhere I belong.Well,I wanna go Autralia.I wanna go Canada,to look back the places I've been to when I was three.I wanna go Japan.I wanna go New York City.=)

4. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?

That everything I wish for,I want,I desire,I like belongs to me.

5. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?

Duh.I thought that's some scientific fact?

6 do you like being who you are today?

I might not at this very particular moment.BUT I will!

7. If you win $1 million, what would you do?

A modern-designed living room with comfy couch,plasma tv and home theater

8. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?

Yes.(as if I've learned nothing bout the past...)

9. Would you swim in a vat of chocolate?

Please don't spoil the first impression,which if the sweetness of chocolate that it implanted in my heart.

10. Do you wear boxers?

Nope.Wait,maybe?When I'm playing the role of male panda.

11. Which type of cars I love the most?

Anything HAWT.

12. Which do you prefer from your other half? hug? or a kiss?

Both.

13. If you have faults, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?

Point out!Although truth always is the most painful thing.

14. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?

I'll tell you once I've found it(him/her/it/them).

15. Ae you a shopaholic or not?

Depends.

16. What kind of electronic device/gadget you own that you like most?

Cellphone,camera and I want a freaggin DSL camera!

17. If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?

My attitude?

18. What makes you feel disappointed?

Things.=x

19. If given a chance, do you want to see your future?

No.

20.What's your name?

PAN.


i tag.

1.Evelyn
2.Julie
3.Mel
4.Dapne
5.Yvonne
6.Wenli
7.Nadiya(I doubt she will do it haha)
8. Jocelynn

What day was yesterday?

Yesterday was 23rd of April 2008.Know what day is that?You don't know?Think carefully...Still can't recall???Hmmmmm....It was...it was...it was...NOT MY BIRTHDAY.LOL!Ok,enough for the lameness.Well,it was an ordinary(maybe not) Wednesday.

Was very busy.In the morning,I went to the leadership camp,more to workshop held in our school.I went with Jocelynn Tian,ah piao ge(me) and ah piao jie(Joce),representing RC.Kor was representing CO.Kelly(mei nv) was there for Scouts,Eileen(Sim) for English club,Lena for SLAD,Cindy(not Jong,I don't know her full name..oppsie) for tennis,Sara for (PRS?idk),Elias for swimmer club and etc.I can't list all of them.

I din't get the notice earlier so when I was going to Physics lab I saw Karen and Elias and Paulynne were in there so I went in and asked the teacher what time it's going to start and I'm actually quite happy that it started 8.10(registration) instead of 9.So I get myself registered(for the sack of cert) and go find Joce to go toilet with me.And guess who were holding my wallet when I came out from the toilet?Bell!Haha.I don't even really know her but she was hiding my wallet.LOL.And she speak so soft that I could hardly hear what is she talking bout.

Too much crap.Returned to hall.I got bore seeing a laptop and projector in front on the stage.I bet it would be like any-ordinary-boring-talk so Joce and Kor came out with an idea to 'colourfied' my shoes with my colour maker.And it's so colourful that I don't really dare to wear them and walk around school.Thank goodness the speaker came,and eventually saved my shoes.Come to be a 30 year old guy to give a talk.Surprisingly.Ok,he's funny.And I still don't understand why he likes to say the word GAY that we thought he was gay.=.= Oh I haven't introduce the speaker...it's Mr. Johan Bey.(click link to visit his friendster profile)He's from UCSI.

He's so different that he doesn't wanna speak on stage.He said because he doesn't want us to see how big his nose hole it.=.=! And he keeps moving direction when he speaks so the whole crowd is like rotating when we're listening to him,by facing him.And come to our surprise,he asked us to form groups and each group were given one RED UCSI tee to rip and remake a piece of clothing.He wanted to taste our creativity and teamworkAfter that,someone is teh group will have to be the model to wear the 'clothes' we re-made.Jocelynn was our model as she's the small sized among us..Me,Joce,Sing Min's elder sis which I don't know her name(sorry),Gui Fei(sorry if wrongly spelled),Lena,Jia Jia,Alvin,Milton,Wee Chyn,Cindy,and another girl form PC club which I also the name were in Kor's group.We were given 15 minutes to get all the things ready.And every model form different group were asked to cat walked.I have a video for the cat walk but it's taken vertically and I don't know how to rotate and upload it.Overall-ly,I think we did a good job even though we din't won any prizes.Great job!


After recess were some talk bout a good leader's quality and stuff.Wasn't paying much attention as I have Kelly(mei nv) sitting next to me.I was too busy transferring current into her eyes.LOL.In the end both our glasses broke.Just kidding!

In the afternoon,I skipped EST class for the prefect interview.But before that,I went to EST class to find Ms. Sarah.She was tempted by my ice-cream!Haha.So tempted that I let her hold it while I get my books from Yee Hwa.And she even pinched me when I called her mama.LOL!

I was obviously late for the interview but that time quarantine(AVA) was packed like sardin in the can.I dare to be late because I know my turn wouldn't be that early.Hui Ching keep asking me to memorise the Rukun Negara,Misi and Visi Sekolah and I was like o_O.Ok...so I actually read them thorugh.And after bout 25 minutes waiting in the AVA,we had to move to school hall due to the chinese class teacher that so ngiao ji-ly wanna use AVA as her classroom.Blah.

After another 15 minutes of waiting inside school hall,Stansfield came and usher me to the interview room.I should be grateful that my interviewers were Stephanie,Abraham and Evan.I'll type out the conversation we had.

All 3 interviewers:"Hi." and Stephanie waving.
Me:"Hi."A little awkwardly.
Abraham:"Can you briefly introduce yourself?"
Me:"My name is Eileen,form 4s4,never been a prefect before."
Abraham:"Why would you like to be one?"*refers to details form I filled*
Me:"Cause I wanna meet more people and gained more experience"(just some random crap people would say)
Abraham:*still referring to paper*Ok,rank yourself from 1-10."
Me:"7."
Abraham:"Ok,what's your weaknesses?"
Me:"I'm hot-tempered and impatient."
Abraham:"But if you're impatient,it's very hard to deal with the gangsters in school"
Me:*I can't remember what I crap so just fast forward ok?*
Abraham:"What time you normally come to school?"
Me:"I usually reach school before 6.45."
Stephanie:"6.45?"
Me:"Yeah,6.30-6.45.Never came later than that."
Evan:*refers to the form*"Hmm,I see you join a lot of clubs.So how do you devide your time?"
Me:"Emm,all those club I never actually attended the meeting(s) because I just joined PC club for sudoku competition's sake,and sidang rekreasi seldom have meeting(s) and photography club always not informed bout the meeting(s)."
Evan:"Sorry sorry,it's my fault."(he's the photography club president)
Me:"It's okay.=)"
Abraham:"So,what are you responsible for in sidang rekreasi?"
Me:"Photography."
Abraham:"So,you like photography?"
Me:"Yeah..."(started to feel a little like o_O?)
Abraham:"So what kind of photos you normally take?"(OMG,serious?)
Me:"Potraits and objects as I usually find it hard to take photos of human beings sometimes."
Abraham:"Okay,we're done.=)"
Me:"Done?Owh,ok.Bye"
3 of them:"Bye."

Okay,I'm still having the o_O? expression bout all those things Abraham asked.LOL.Shall end here.Endless crap.Haha.And thanks to all that wished me luck for the interview.To those who went for the interview,good luck too.

Jokes:

#1
Teacher:"Jimmy,where were you born?"
Jimmy:"Malaysia,"
Teacher:"Which part?"
Jimmy:"All of me."

LOL.

#2
Teacher:"Maria,can you help me find MALAYSIA on the map?"
Maria:"Ok!Here it is."*pointing at MALAYSIA on the map*
Teacher:"Class,can anyone tell me who found MALAYSIA?"
Whole class:"MARIA!!!"

HAHAHAHA!

#3
Little Tom is only four.One day,he was looking at his mother breast feeding his new born sister.And he thinks to himself:"Mummy have two boobs,maybe one contains cold milk and another one contains hot milk."

*bangs head on the wall with hands on the tummy,laughing out loud*

p/s:Until today,there's only one of the very few people that won't crack into laughters or hit me or say I'm lame or give any expression when they heard my lame jokes------Ms. Cassey.LOL.

P.S. I Love You & Jokes

"PS I Love You" tracklist
01. Love You 'Till The End - The Pogues
02. Same Mistake - James Blunt
03. More Time - Needtobreathe
04. Carousel - Laura Izibor
05. Fortress - Hope
06. Last Train Home - Ryan Star
07. Rewind - Paolo Nutini
08. My Sweet Song - Toby Lightman
09. No Other Love - Chuck Prophet
10. Everything We Had - The Academy Is...
11. In The Beginning - The Stills
12. If I Ever Leave This World Alive - Flogging Molly
13. P.S. I Love You - Nellie McKay
14. Kisses And Cake - John Powell

Yeap,watched P.S I love you.I've never read the book before but among all my friends that read,99% of them said it's a good book so I bought the dvd(pirated la).

And kaboom! yes indeed it's a nice one.I like the songs in there.Tearsdrop on my guitar is the last 'slow' motion song I've listened before these.And I'm sort of 'amazed' by James Blunt's Same Mistake.I never used to like James Blunt.But overall,not bad.

Tomorrow is Wednesday and Jocelynn Tian and I are representing our RC unit to the Kem Kepimpinan(Leadership Camp) held in the school hall form 9 to 12 tomorrow.=) And the prefects interview will be 1.15pm.And once again,Joce.T is also going for prefect interview.So I guess tomorrow would be a hell lot of laughters.

I have a joke here:

Teacher:"What's the chemical formula for water?"
Student:*Raised up hand*"H I J K L M N O."
Teacher:"WTF?What was that?o_O??!"
Student:"You said H to O yesterday!"

LOL.

Well,here's another one.

Hey baby,let's do math.
ADD the bed,
SUBTRACT the clothes,
DIVIDE the legs,and
let's MULTIPLY.

LOL!!!!!!!!

It's getting late...so,let's MULTIPLY!Hah!

Movies

Haven't been doing much revision for the upcoming exam.All I do is online,walk around the city,sleep,eat and having movie marathon.Bought St. Trinian's,Cloverfield,P.S I love you,Water Horse and a 2-in1 dvd that includes step up,step up 2.

Watched Cloverfield last night and I'm very disappointed with it.It's one of the 'no head no tail' movies I don't like.And it also almost make me puke all the fine pizzas I had in the evening.Not because the creatures are disgusting but because it's sort of like video camera-recorded so when they're running and moving here and there,it feels so dizzy.Blah.

On the other hand,the St.Trinian's I've just finish watching few minutes ago,was pretty awesome and glad I'm not disappointed by it.=) Check it out on wiki.

Here's a picture of the cover and a list of songs in the movie.



Theme to St Trinian's - Girls Aloud
Trouble - Cast of St Trinians
Oh My God - Marc Ronson/ Lilly Allen
Is In the Air - Rupert Everett and Colin Firth
Don't Give Up - Noisettes
Nine 2 Five - Ordinary Boys
If I Can't Dance - Sophie Ellis Bextor
Teenage Kicks - Remi Nicole
Who let The Dogs Out - Cast of St Trinians
Sanctuary - Gabriella
Love Is A Many Splendid Thing - Four Aces
Three Spoons Of Suga - Sugababes
On My Way To Satisfaction - Girls Aloud
Theme to St Trinians - Cast of St Trinians

End of Flag Day Sale

Hi people!!!(Yes,I'm on cloud 10 right now)

WHY?

Simple,because FLAG DAY SALE ain't my fucking business anymore.Yayness!=)

And to people especially those who went out to collect donations,those who tried their best to get as much *ka-ching ka-ching* as possible people!And much thanks to Jordy and Eileen(Sim)'s help to help me fill up the empty cans this afternoon and Jordy actually skipped class.*so touched*.Well,not really...and remember to give me back my step up 1 + 2 disc and my water horse!As for Eileen,you have to bring my 'PS,I love you' to exchange waterhorse with Jordy.[I know they're not reading this cause they don't even know the existence of this blog]

And thank God for *something* hehe.

\m/

I know I look like I'm closing my eyes in the picture,anything...wasn't taken by me though=)

With a complementary funny video:



And Ms.Cheng aka. our mama actually wanted to 'volmit blood' during my 'lame jokes telling session' this morning.=)

Got inspired?

Nothing much.Just posting up some photos I took today.I've chosen the best out of the rest and I'm quite satisfied.I'm back,photography!

And mummy...I can't wait to see you!xoxo

I have a smiling heart

I might not be the luckiest person on earth,
I might not the one that love you the most,
I might not be as angelic as others,
But I'm grateful to have you.

I might not always be with you,
I might not be what you want,
I might not able to give you everything,
But I'm always here for you.

I might be the most annoying person you've ever met,
I might be the lamest human beings,
I might be the bitchiest bitch,
But as long as I'm loved,nothing matters.

I might not be around to share your happiness,
I might not seem to be bothered,
I might seem like I don't know,
But I'm really really happy for you.

So......when are you gonna buy me my happy meal again?=)

Stress or getting old?

OMG!

I freaked out like hell when Li Fern found my second white hair!!!And I'm only 15 years old 8 month plus.Grrrrr!

p/s:Sorry...I'm very sensitive bout hair issues.

I promise I'll try to be a better friend...

cause I wasn't one.

Time's running out.

Scandal!

Warning:Pictures contain nudity ahead!
























LOLS.I'm sorry!Was too bored at tuiton so played with Horng Hui's brickbear and I suddenly remembed Eason Chen's scandalous pictures and most of the pictures he had the brickbear in it so I...hehe.Plus,the bear's expression fits the actions.

Over the busy weekend

This post was supposed to be written yesterday but due to the too much time I've wasted on dealing with templates and pictures edittings,I'm now finally free to blog.

Yea,as I said,I changed my blog templates,well actually more to header.So,those readers of mine who are kind enough,please give some comment(s).Thanks a lot!


Last Saturday morning,we(RCYU6) had a telematch organized by Jocelynn Tian.Guess I was nervous and excited bout it that I can't sleep well on Friday nite.=.=

Was leading Group 1,with my dearest assistant,Sonia Yap.And don't forget bout all the cute cute members which are Nadiya,Nazeerah,Sara,Johnathan Jong,Ai Wen,Wee Lee,Sharon Teo and Chun Xian.I think that's it but I felt like I missed out one.Hmm?

Had 10 stations altogether.Below are stations in the order we went.
1.Four cups filled with water.Blow the ping pong ball on top of the water surface.From the first cup to the fourth and you'll gain 1 mark.Station master,Yew Wooi.

2.Answer 5 questions and have to get 3 our of 5 correct.Upon answering a question,we were required to give the exact amount of monopoly notes that Bryan(station master) wants.

3.In a classroom,4 of my members were blind-folded.One has to stand behind to look out for water balloons on the ground.Others give instructions to the blind-folded to get a piece of yellow 'post-it',without stepping the water balloons on the ground.After 4 pieces of 'post-it' were obtained,solve 3 mathematics equation without calculators and writing down.Station master,Jordy and Yik Tze(Tik Chee)?(There were too many people in the classroom)

4.From the range of 1 to 100,guess a number.The 'lucky' number you guessed were correct,you are 'lucky' to get splashed water by Agoo.Station master,Ida.

5.'Fish" up some bottles,bottles cap and aluminium cans from a pail full of water.Each bottles,bottle caps and aluminium cans consist of different marks.Station master,Horng Hui.

6.1 person throw a water balloon with the back facing the receivers.Receivers can only 'receive' the water ballons using their shirt.If you can't get it and unluckily it burst,you get WET.Station master,I think that was Yik Chee.Can't recall.

7.Group member excluded group leader were given a cup to hold,with only using mouth.Group leader pour water on first person's cup and help to 'transfer' the water from cup to cup.Station master,Gavin.

8.Strings were tied zig-zag-ly on the bench in the corridor.Balloons were all over to be destroyed.Crawl under the strings and once your ass or body or head touches the strings,re-crawl!Station master,Evon.

9.A small pool filled with water and coins.(I was the one who filled the water!xD)Members were blind-folded,again.And only members were allowed to play(go into the pool) while Sonia and I were allowed to stay outside the pool,helping them to look for the coins through the so-damn-polluted water.Only toes are allowed to get the coins out of the pool.And RM2.00 is needed to proceed to next station.Station master,Julie.

10.Pass a container with holes from the front to the back.One by one.And the last one,which is me have to pour the water into a big bucket.We saved time by me throwing the empty container back to yaya in the front.And there was once I accidently bang the container on Sara's head.I am really really really sorry!!!Station master,Dorreen.

Our group got second runner up.=)

My group

Went back home for lunch and shower.Had guitar class at 2 and went tHe spring to shop for Mel(Melody's) birthday present.The two males in the family actually went shopping and bought clothes for the girl in the family.LOL.And luckilly Mel said the hoodie and flip flop fits her.

We went to see some reptiles at DiGi roadshow at tHe spring.But neither of us dare to reload and play the games.And yay I finally had the starbucks I was craving since don't know when.And we weren't tempted to buy the donuts because of the long queue.Hah!


Went to Albert and Michelle after we two had shopped in the tHe spring and waited for my parents to shower at my house.Apparently,we reached there even earlier than Mel herself.LOL.

People keep coming as sun's going down.Let me just tell you who's the latest.Julie the pig xD.Pei Yi and I were like the two female that eat non stop and keep stuffing our mouth with food even though we were full.And we ordered two spaghettis and one lamb chop.Most of us had martini sprite which tasted more like shandy.Perhaps cause we're underage so they don't serve us real martini?Grrr.Should have just ordered Heineken.

Had lots of fun that night and most of them were busy snapping photos here and there while some just sit there and talk and relax.Some hottie even offered me massage.=)

I'm the broken string

Things changes,so do people.
I've known it from the beginning and have been warned.
But sometimes,certain stuff is prefered to be preserved.
You don't seem like the 'you' that I used to hang out with anymore.
I can't deny the sorrow,the uncertain,the unfaithful feelings I'm having now.
Co'z I somehow realized, people who let a kite's string unattached will never reattach the strings. Co'z I'm a kite with broken strings,who flies with no directions in the air.
It's up to you to prove me wrong.

p/s:It's just my own opinion.Things might be different at another point of view and I'm not here to judge anyone.

Sherwood-Song In My Head

The cutest music video I've ever seen!Credits to Ju who introduced this song.xD

I need...to be socialized

Human beings walked passed.
Hi and bye is all we know.

It sucks.
I need to be socialized!

When people left me alone and forget bout me...

When there's love,there's hatred.

Shit.

I'm so dead.

I'm like back to the E- status kid.

A.G.A.I.N

So,it's normal to see penknife back in my hands and me screaming like a screamo band's lead singer.

Every second just make my nerves get nervous and I can't fucking relax.

I feel like banging,throwing crashing things.





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