It's amazing to found out you could actually put a smile on a person's face.And bring laughters into their everyday life.

Are you an angel?

Hi my friend=)

It has been a long time since I last met a friend that makes me feel so damn good,gorgeous.

We had the same syndrome,we are having the same craziness.

Tonight had been a grateful and talkertive night.I enjoyed and I laughed a lot.

I'm just a little left behind

I'll be flying in like 2 and a half day time,but I'm not very excited now.Every time before I fly I was very excited.Okay,these few days sucks.I have been thinking a lot.

I'm a broken strings of a kite and I'm also a friend that tries to pay back the unhappiness I used to brought to by brighten up their life.But,no one appreciates and needed freebies I'm giving.

I'm just a normal person.

I might be just a little lack of fun.

I might be just a little lack of attitude.

I might be just a little lack of knowledge.

I might be just a little lack of appearance.

I might be just a little lack of intelligence.

I might be just a little lack of everything everyone has or needed.

But it doesn't mean that I don't feel anything or need anything or desire anything.

Of newspaper cosplaying and H2O

Went to the telematch organised by SPBT this morning.Wasn't happy nor sad when Jordy,Ida,Sonia and Evon were all in the same group.*ahem*Someone changed group.*ahem*

I was the only RC member in my group.Patricia and I were the only Greenians.Two St.Marian,Jia Jia and Fathehah(I'm not sure bout the spelling),two Kuching Highian(Bryan or was it Brian and Adli) and Sungai Maong(-ian?),Guan Khee were in my group,group.Patricia was the only who spoke at first.She kinda 'appoint' me to be the group leader.Me being 'anything ok person' just accepted.LOL!*so perasan hor?*

Back picture.From left to right:Guan Khee,Bryan(Brian),Adli,ME,Patricia,Jia Jia,Fathehah(?)

Nothing much to complain bout the games.Most of them I had played before during our RC telematch.And my group was so unlucky that we all get wet only in the first station.=.=!Guess what.It's the game in front library where we have to transfer water in a buckle with holes from front to back.I think that was the third time I played that game in school at the same venue!=.=!!!But that was the time where everyone started to talk and interact and started to make noise.=)

I was shivering and sneezing while waiting for the water buckle.I wasn't feeling very good this morning.Had coughing and running nose.I guess band members were kinda jealous with us as we're playing water while they doing formation under hot sun.Hee=)

Second station is something different.A balloon is placed between the back of two person.The balloon have to be carried from starting point and drop it into a pail without bursting it at the ending point.Meanwhile,the two person were given a pair of chopsticks each.Chopsticks were given to carry the soaked-with-water-sponge and squeeze the water at the ending point.Patricia and I were good in this.

Third station was the ping pong ball blowing thinggy.Yea,this morning was also the third time I played that.And I had gained the skills from the last time I played.So this wasn't something very bad for me.Shan Liang told me his group gained 40++ points for this game!

Fourth was the station that pissed me off.They asked some stuff that we don't even know so in the end we were kinda like gave up and just let them splash us with water.And the people at that station weren't very friendly too.Ida thinks so too.Right?=)

p/s:Yea I admit I suck in general knowledge and stuff but still,people knows I complains.Alot.

Fifth was balloon throwing.Not much difference from what we have played.Just that we were given pails to catch the balloon.Honestly,I prefer using our shirts.Pail made the balloons bursts.Grr=.=

Sixth was transfering water with paper cup game.That game bores us.

Seventh was the last.Form a pair.Grab a card each from a box.Each card contains a body part.Body part mentioned is placed with the body part of your partner.A book will be in between.Walk from the starting point to ending point.Walk back from ending point to starting point and drop the books into a pail.This was a more fun and creative!At first was kinda boring as most of us only got back and finger.Easy task.Then someone got butt.Then forehead.Then chin,cheek,arm and ear.Haha.

After done with changing our wet clothes,we gathered in the hall.Had fashion show.And all leaders including me was yelling ans screaming when we chose the picture we had to cosplay.It's all anime!!!Something I sucked in.But I was lucky I think.For choosing some kimono over warrior battle armour.One group made a nice and big cross.Haha.

Jordy still posing with the content-less book and ME

The food was HOT!Din't finished.Can't stand it.

One more thing,for last,WHY THEY HAVE TO PUT HSM's SONGS FOR THE WHOLE FREAKING MORNING?!^&%*&)*

AJKs and Patricia.They are all wearing newspaper=.=

what time is it..what time is it...NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

The newspaper I mean Kimono I was talking about.

Some random facts:

1.There were seven groups.Group 1 was lead by Jocelynn.Group 2 by me.Group 3 by Jordy.Group 4 by Shan Liang.And the rest by others.4 of us are from RC.

2.They was playing HSM's songs non-stop.

3.Almost every game involves water,H2O.Except for the last game=.=

##p/s:Can't wait to wear baju kurung for the first time in my life!!!=)

Misses!

On a semi-emo night,I viewed at the pictures I just got from Eileen(not myself duh) and damn,by just looking at those pictures,I started missing some people.And it turns me into sentimental mood.Wtf?Can't imagine right?

wenLi,Deb and Phyllis.

Png

Wen Siew

After seeing all these faces that some of you that might not know,finally,there's a picture of me!*perasan*

Me.Wen Siew

Got tagged by Mel

1) the most daring thing you have ever done
-Lied to my parents that I had extra class in school whereas I followed by friend's car out to collect newspaper when I was in primary 6.Shhhh!

2) the most daring thing you plan to do
-I told a guy I had a crush on him and ended up building icy walls between us.Kids,don't try this at home.

3) something (a quirk) everyone knows you for
-My nick is Panda/pan and I my hairstyle.(Ju keeps telling me I look like this and that person when we go out!hmph)

4) your favorite object
-Sexy DSLR cameras!

5) what you crave for right now
-What more to say?A DSLR camera for sure!I want a Nikon D60 or maybe Canon EOS Rebel XSi.*sweating*they're damn hawt.

6) what you think about yourself
-I like photography.I worship good cameras,skillful photographers,cool bloggers,interesting blogs and lame jokes.

7) your most used word
-Har?Damn.OMG.

8) what you want to do but you know you can't/won't do it
-Have a pair of wings.

Okay.I've done it.I tagged YOU.

Shoo!

I hate people who change their mind after they made your day by agreeing on something and suddenly trembles you by canceling on the agreement.I call it giving false hope.

I hate people who gives you tons of jobs when they feel like to.I call it irresponsible.

I hate people who shows you different faces on different days in front of different people.I call it two headed snake.

I hate people who make me boils.I call it ass.

So,obviously I'm in the 'hating-the-damn-fucked-up-world' mood.Go away people.

RCYU#8 53rd AGM

Went to St. Theresa,RCYU#8 53rd AGM this afternoon.The school hall,me likey!Damn!Too bad I forgotten to snap a picture of it.It's on first floor!Unlike most of the normal hall.

Was greeted by a few RC members.Someone I could recognise the most is someone named Francoise.They put on a sweet gift on our wrist.It's just a simple ribbon with a small piece of paper with some writings on it.Very sweet.(refer to picture above if you couldn't imagine them by my description)

Then,Jocelynn and I were brought to the school hall by the ushers.Was busy looking for Adeline but I see no sight of her.Was handed a booklet.Was shocked to see someone's name printed on it.Last week when I was browsing for a friend from Adel's friendster friend list,I saw this girl that has very talented photography skills so I went into her profile.Saw her blog link,clicked and read her blog.And holy,I saw the blogger today.But was too awkward to say Hi.xD

I'll just cut off the speech and stuff.Watermelon,cakes and sandwiches were served as refreshment.Jocelynn and I were busy socialising with the incoming batch.Congratulated Felicia Bateman,the new HSL.And Adeline.And passed some words Eileen asked me to pass to their ex HSL,Melanie.Call it the exchange phone numbers session.Haha.

During photography session

After refreshment was performance.Form 4 was a piano solo by someone whom I've forgotten her name.Form 3 sang More Than Words and another song which I don't know.And the form2 did a sketch.Which I'm kinda blur with.But one thing is,they has good acting skills.The incoming batch sang my favourite song!By Avril Lavigne of course.Nobody's home.I miss Avril!=(

Sketch by form 2s

The whole thing was too rush that it ended very early.But before it ends of course there's a photography where everyone starts showing off their own cameras.Haha.Felicia was kind enough to bring Jocelynn and I to walk around the school.Well,actually it's us that asked her to.In an indirect way.LOL.

My legs needs rest!

Me.After exams.

Have been going out this two days to catch up with friends and stuff.Actually,to be more accurate,to 'celebrate' the freedom after the tiring semester exam.Everyone deserves to be pampered once in a while okay.

I wanna stay there.It's so comfort.xD

22nd May
Did something quite insane and stupid in s2 in the morning.I'll just pray that my angelic-side-twin,Joce Chai couldn't find her cable so that she couldn't transfer the video.Ahh,Belle's the one who took the video by the way.

Went for probation prefect meeting straight away after last paper,maths.It took about 15 minutes.After that,rushed to sickroom to have committee board meeting with the RC.Mom picked me and Jenny from school then picked sis and cousin.Reached home around 1.30 then bathed.Went out and had fillet-o-fish for lunch.Waited for Pam at Star.

Went to Sarawak Plaza while waiting for time to pass.Saw Baby Milo tees but there were all L size.The male L size.Damn.After wandering for an hour,the time is already 4 so we headed back to Star.Watched Ironman.The main actor is HAWT!!!!!!!!!!*drools*I totally agrees with YH after watching it myself.The movie itself is nice.Some parts are very funny that Leandre and I laughed quite loud.The whole cinema hall was only us with another 4 person!So...empty.*plays The Click Five's empty*

After movie was 6.15.Jenny went back.Me and the rest walked to Parkson.My dad called at 7.30 so I went back around 8.

23rd May
Woke up like usual time.Went to school but weren't in school uniform.I hate wearing them so I basically will get rid of wearing them as much as possible.I wasn't involved in any of the performance.I went there as a photographer.I started to doubt bout my ability as a event photographer.I'm okay in landscape and objects and people already I guess.


Nothing much.Nothing interesting except fr the CO and form6 sketch.For you info,today was the first time I experienced GRSS's teacher's day.This kind of event just don't seem to be in one with me.


Mel's aunt drove me and Ju and Mel's sis and the sis' friends.While going down Green Road,was kinda awkward cause people keep looking at us.A car that looks like van,with 9 kids.It feels like we're riding school bus but the difference is our car is air-conditioned and Mel said we can even cook at the back of the car.Coolness~

Waited for Mel to bath.Then went to a steamboat place and had our lunch there.It's nice and healthy and it really makes me full even though the three of us only ate for like 39 bucks.I guess something was wrong with the calculation.Hmm,not sure.

Vanity strikes us.

Crossed the road and reached tHe spring.Like usual,the girls began the shop!I seriously couldn't remember the sequence of shops we went.Along with doing the shopping,we sat down and had drinks for a few times and we absolutely took a lot of pictures.I mean,A LOT!Okay,just admit it.I'm very vain.=) I mean why not,I was in such a good mood and I had a great day and I spent my day with this bunch of crazy buds and they are the type that will laugh at your funny jokes,your funny actions and funny talkings.And most important,they will 'invite' you to their 'party'!I guess that would be considered as our inside joke(s).

It looks like some artist poster.Especially korean style.LOL.=)

We bought matching bracelet for each of us.It cost us 19 bucks per bracelet but I like it!I like mine.The colour suits my bangles and my skin and I look like 'la kia' with it.Yay~

The green one looks most 'la kia' style right?

These few teachers will demo you on 'how to pose like a model.'

Interesting ey?

Malaysian Artistes For Unity

Those who have been listening to Hitz recently might realised there's a song that has malay,chinese and tamil lyrics in it.It's somewhat a very catchy song.I tried to look online but couldn't find it but thanks to Hugh who mentioned bout the official site during tuiton yesterday.=)

Must watch/listen to this!Especially if you're a Malaysian.I'm a Malaysian from Malaysia but I'm not Malay.(It sounds strange to foreign people ok)



By clicking this,or the flash banner at the sidebar of this blog,you can go to their official site and download the song,the video or the lyrics you want!!!

Actually bout the banner,I wanted to use the red one with lots of wordings bout too bad that's the horizontal one.And the one on my sidebar is the only siderbar type!Hmph!=(

p/s:The song also features Jason Lo!!!And omg I think that was the first time I see how he looks like.He's the one wearing yellow jersey.*I think!!!*And can you spot Amber Chia???The video features her by the way.

No one,no one,no one~

I passed first stage(not batch) of probation prefects.=)Exam's finishing in 2 days.By the way,Puan Patricia Wong put something creepy on the radio this morning.She put "TIAN MI MI"!!!Omigosh,I swear I was having *wtf aka. =.= pose* when I was sweeping and suddenly heard the song.

People said I looked upset today.Ya well,I'm upset.From Saturday night till now.Only Pam knows why.It's just some same old stories I had in my worst year,last year.Same character,same plot,same director and same script.Blah.

Just,I tried very hard to ignore it but it seems to be haunting me now.It doesn't feel good to be treated like how I was treated.Nevermind,no one knows me,no one knows how I felt,no one can bare with my weirdness.*plays Alicia Keys' NO ONE*

"There's a light at each end of this tunnel,
You shout 'cause you're just as far in as you'll ever be out
And these mistakes you've made, you'll just make them again
If you only try turning around."

Love is not destroyed by a single failure or won by a single caress.

A line or words that I found on someone's blog.It's...so true.=)

ATTENTION JULIE CHOW XXX XX,go create a new Friendster profile or update pictures on dA or post pictures on your blog~=( I'm so lack of photos to view at.Sigh.

I'm still updating this blog

Hello people.Haha.Tomorrow I'll be having P.H.Y.S.I.C but I'm still blogging.Well nothing much to blog about,just wanna make sure some people won't miss me too much.*ahem*?!

I'm still fat.
I'm still dark.
I'm still bitchy.
I'm still selfish.
I'm still doing things I like.
I'm still not getting what I want.
I'm still pissed for not getting what I asked.
I'm still excited because the lower six are coming back.
I'm still not studying despite the fact I'm going to fail my addmath paper.
I'm still one of the 'tie-must-pull-up-up' probation prefects.
I'm still surviving without you.
I'm still using my brain cells.
I'm still smiling without you.
I'm still happy without you.
I'm still your sweetheart.
I'm still breathing.
I'm still lovin you.
I'm still your pan.

Happy exams week.ONE more week...

Time.Is precious.

Some people have been asking me why I haven't update my blog after ummm don't know how many days.There are various answers for this question.
1.Exams' coming.Ok.I don't see a point there since I haven't start studying at all.
2.My mom banned and will be banning me from using PC on weekdays.
3.I've been sleeping very early and would most probably find me taking nap every afternoon cause I'm one of the probation prefects.
4.There's no one to chat with when I go online.
5.I'm so lack of things to blog.Well,actually I have some but just don't feel like telling.(?)

I skipped Chemistry tuiton and went to watch English Public Speaking Kuching Division yesterday afternoon.Was talking with Ju after school(she came back to school for break) and the teacher-in-charge,Theresa Leong thought I would be following so yea I called back and told my mother I'm not going home.LOL.

Basically,I was thinking whole time on the way to SM Teknik Kuching(place the competition were held),why am I freaking on the car now.Damn.Feel so awkward.=(

Finally saw Samantha Sii in person.Din't talked but smiled at.Met about 3 girls?One from Kuching High,one from SMK Tun Abdul Razak and another one don't know from where.And sorry I don't know all their names.I only know that the one from Kuching High claimed that she saw me once when I collected the flag day tins from Chapter.Hmm.

Title for the speaking(second round-impromptu) was 'A time to kill,a time to heal;A time for war,a time for peace'The phrase has been repeated and repeated by 31 participants.And no I din't fall asleep despite the chilling surrounding(cause the hall was big,not many people and has powerful fan blowing quite directly on top of me) and it was like 30 out of 31 participants talked bout war.Yea I guess you can guess who's the odd one.=)

First place goes to Batu Lintang.Followed by Kuching Town No.1,St.Mary,St.Theresa and Arang Road.And I lost my bet-a Mcflury.Sigh.Damn it.Haha.But I earned myself a good experience though.

No head no tail post

Sorry bout the ramblings in the previous post.Ha.

Finally cheered up in the middle of the night when my laggy phone finally receives the message someone sent me 7am in the morning!Dang.

Lets talk bout Mariah Carey.She sings the song people knows-touch my body.Yea.Wouldn't it be weird if she asks me to touch her body?Hmm.*perasaning,nt rasa pening*

And I kinda wonder where does everyone vanished into?There's always no one online when I login MSN since yesterday.

So yea,I wanna go catch up and touch her body.

Can anyone answer my question?

I woke up.
I went to school.
I talked to people.
I saw people busy doing things.
I did nothing but sitting down looking.
It's just freaking boring and crappy that I hate it so much.
Fuck.Fuck.Fuck.Fuck.Fuck.Fuck.Fuck.Fuck.Fuck.Fuck.Fuck.
F.U.C.K!

Can anyone lend a hand?
Can I stop from hating things?
Can I stop from hating people?
Can I just have something extraordinary to do?
Can I freaking have a life?
Damn it.Damn it.Damn it.
D.A.M.N I.T!!!

I don't know what I want.
I don't want what I wanted.
I want what I din't wanted for.
This is just so...me.

I'll be alright.
I'll be smiling tomorrow.
I'll...

Life's short.It's short that people never realised that's the thing a person can have it for the longest time-since the day you were born till your date of death.

p/s:When someone isn't in the mood,is it worse or is it better to ignore and leave them alone?

Dedicated to Yvonne

Supa dupa cute Yvonne on angelic bandana.

[Y]vonn[E] T.T I'm Sry.. says:
23 april is a big day.
[Y]vonn[E] T.T I'm Sry.. says:
nt a normal day like u said in ur blog
[Y]vonn[E] T.T I'm Sry.. says:
lolz
eee.leeen says:
lol dat post..
eee.leeen says:
so crappy d beginning
eee.leeen says:
wad happened dat day aussie gurl?mind to share?
[Y]vonn[E] T.T I'm Sry.. says:
oh..
[Y]vonn[E] T.T I'm Sry.. says:
my b'day
[Y]vonn[E] T.T I'm Sry.. says:
lolz
[Y]vonn[E] T.T I'm Sry.. says:
how can u forget
[Y]vonn[E] T.T I'm Sry.. says:
T_T

I"m really really really really really really sorry!I seriously thought you were born in November.=( LOL.I tend to mixed up people's birthdays cause I don't usually say happy birthday to them.Once again.Sorry.

With this,I,EILEEN CHIN would like to dedicate this blog post,especially to Ms. YVONNE ONG YEE WEN.Haha.Now you know why did I confirmed your name with you on MSN.Guess I'll never found that out if you din't talk to me on MSN just now.Anyways,I still like to call you AUSSIE GURL.Haha.

My reminder,
Be more optimistic.Don't always think life is that complicated.Although my favourite singer sang the song 'complicated'.Oh well.Ups and downs comes with life when you bought it.Just like happy meal comes with a toy.(My gawd,I starting describing things to you using toilet bowl,pumps and now what,McD?!)

Hmm,Yvonne...I don't know when I know you.All I could remember was,you moved to KL when we were in primary 5.Is that right?(People,can't blame me cause I never really hang out with her and we never studied in the same class)I think I knew you through some random people?My gawd.I'm like someone who had short-term-memory lost.

Oh yea,back to my story.After you moved to KL,we started to 're-meet' online.And exchanged numbers and MSN.And tadaaaa~last year you told me you're moving to Aus after PMR.And there,now you're in Aus,dumping me here with freakin hot weather and make me sweat everyday and have oily face.*ewwww*BUT,I still love you.I mean,c'mon.You don't see friends that don't remember full name,birthdays,how they met etc like us right?We are so cute!*super perasan now*=)

Ever wonder?

Ever wonder,why you were born like a koala bear that sticks on a tree trunks that never wants you to be there at all?

Ever wonder,why you were born to be that bitchy that no one ever loved you?

Ever wonder,why you were born and sitting here wondering things I'm asking you to wonder?

It's just me.Thinking.Again.Which I'm not supposed to.Haha...